on a lonely friday night.

So this is what i do on friday nights, i read our blog. but no one else has blogged- what a bummer. so i read UNI's page. It was pretty interesting, just reading about 15 posts (some really long ones) all at once. it was pretty captivating, i must say.

I feel that there's just been so much going on. i feel that everyday, for the last week, at least, all i've been doing is study for exams. and up til now, i haven't exactly been worried. perhaps i was so out of it that i couldnt even get time to be worried. but really, what's the point of all my studying? just to get into university? and what happens after? i dont wanna sound emo, but that's what's been going on in my head.

However, i know that God's in control and im cool with that. Sometimes i scare myself because of how chilled i can be. But i've come to realized that this is God's peace. This is what He wants for me : not to worry about tomorrow, because tmr has enough worries of its own. ( I didn't want this to turn out into a "do no worry" post.. so i wont.)

So then it gets me to my next random thought. What am i wasting my time on? "waste" might not be the best word, but really, time seems to be lacking all the time (ha. pun.) but .. what do i spend my time on? what're my priorities? Why cant i just stop what i "shouldn't" be doing and instead, focus on what i should be. Like.. watching dramas. it's not like i dont have work to do, but im just sitting there. and half the time i'm not even watching the show.. it's just noise. maybe instead of all this wasted time on tv and such, maybe i can get more sleep. or even just more hwk time so i do quality work. or even better, more quality time with God. I can't say im not getting quality time with God.. but hey, the more the better. Sometimes i wonder if God gets bored of me, hahahah. :)

I think this is starting to be more of a rant blog then a ... "sharing about my experiences with God" blog. But that's okay. so lately i've been thinking about boundaries. im not sure if any one of you were even attending church back then, but we had a summer retreat, and that was the theme, i believe. i cant remember anything from then, but i have a bookmark in my bible, and it's green. haha. but everytime i think about that word "boundaries".. it has a negative connotation to it. if something is bound.. it's not good, right? it's restricted, limited to .. space? time? capabilities? i duno. i'm just saying.. "there's always gotta be a time to draw the line", right? but how do we know? i'm not exactly thinking of a specific situation, but just life in general. sorta like "how much candy is too much?" when my teeth start to rot? i'm just being a bit cynical here. but hey, the sky's the limit. i can do whatever i want, given that it's God driven. ( haha.)

if you read all that, then good job. im not sure what you got out of it. i think i just needed an outlet.
notice how i didnt even bother typing in Caps as i would normally on this blog because i want to promote correct english structure and grammar. haha. i'm too tired to think.

-a.