Okay, so no blogs yet... a bit disappointing. but here's mine.
Today I think I experienced something that bothered me a lot. Y'know, it's one of those things that really isn't a big deal, but to me personally, I was upset. I dont know if you've been wrongly accused for something that you didn't do, but I suppose that's what happened to me. Well, so during lunch I was counting money for the music council, since we just did a huge chocolate fundraising event. So i was counting with my teacher and two other students. And we just so happened to run over lunch and I got to class 5 minutes late.. during DEAR. I didnt ask my teacher for a note cause it's just 5 minutes, right, whatever. But noo, my physics teacher was being... extremely unpleasent, and demanded a detention for 50 minutes.. (10 times the length i was late) So fine, whatever, right, I'll take it. It's just detention. But at that time, I felt so.. disturbed, i guess. Honestly, okay, i was late, but 10 times? c'mon. that's just ridiculous. the school policy is to stay for however long you were late for, maxmum double the time...So I tell her, I was doing music council stuffs, i'll ask my supervising teacher to write a note explaining my tardiness. But no, she's like "oh, no. i dont want a note. im tired of your excuses and crap." I think at that point I kinda.. y'know. reached my max "pissed"-ness. So I just sat down and did nothing for the rest of the class. We're not even learning.. we're having presentations. I honestly dont see her reason in being so mean. then near the end of class, she comes to me and says "oh, i just spoke to mr lum (music head), he said there was no reason for you to have been late." and im like "dude, i wasnt WITH mr lum. did you talk to mr church? (the one i was with)" and by this time i'm pretty much yelling.. well, not yelling, more like. rising my voice. and she's like "i don tneed to talk to mr church. i talked to lum already." and that's just ridiculous. lum wasnt even around during lunch. blah blah blah, the story goes on. And something that i hate about myself is that i cry very easily, even if i'm not at fault. So i started crying during class. The class was just doing "class work", so i just kept on sitting there. I wasn't exactly angry.. but when she accused me of missing 5 MINUTES of class because "i just wanted to" was just bs. (please excuse my language) anyway, so by that time i was supposed to go do a bio contest, so i just walk out. i couldnt take it.. what was i supposed to say when she didnt even try to listen? so i left. and did the contest.. which i probably failed. but yeah, so then afterschool i went to my detention. I knew it wasnt gonna be 50 minutes; she wouldnt bother to stay that long. So whatever, i went there to do math homework. The worst part of this was that she brought in mr lum to give me another lecture. Talk about fun. He starts talking about the council's reputation being more important and how people have abused their rights as council members to miss classes, blah blah blah. and how "maybe you guys just want more time afterlunch to hand out (talking to me and my boyfriend) but you gotta go to class on time." and ......... by then i just totally shut him out. DUDE, DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON. he comes in and starts talkign about crap when he doesnt even know the situation. perhaps he was trying to apologize for his "misunderstaning" that i was with mr church at lunch, but it sure felt like he was just trying to save his own rep and justified himself. I'm sure he said more, but i cant remember it. So we got let out like.. 30 minutes after, but seriously.. i dont see a point in it.
I still dont know what i did wrong.. and honeslty, i dont think i did. if they had to put a blame on me, maybe is hould've asked for a note. but what good would that have done, since it was an "excuse" anyway? I felt that i was just caught inbetween two people who had a crappy day. but whatever. I still dont see why i was "punished" for doing stuffs during lunch.. for the council. So then afterschool, i spent a while talking to my friends.. who were totally on my side and such, but there was no point in talking about it anymore, it's done. and lum comes and goes like "do you need to talk about this?".. what can i talk about? you already judged me by "what happened". I guess my reason for being so upset is that.. well, they were attacking my .. character. They thought that i went to class late because i a) just didnt feel like it, b) wanted to spend time with my boyfriend (which was ridiculous, i wasnt even with him =.=) and c) that i do this often. Honestly.. i dont even skip class, if i really didnt wanna go to class, why would i have gone after 5minutes? and i've never "abused" the council title for my own gain.. it's easy to, but i haven't, yet.
So as i was.. just thinking this over, i remembered what we watched last week about forgiveness. He said somethign about forgiveness is actually for the forgiving, not the ones being forgiven. Well, I dont know whether or not i forgave them.. cause i still cant let it go. But i guess that's also part of who i am.. i need to be right. and ... well, i still dont see any bit in how i was wrong. And if i do forgive them eventually, since forgivness is an action, am i gonna go up to my teachers and tell them i forgive them? that's kinda awkward.. isnt it? So then after all this, i was thinking a) maybe i should drop the course RIGHT NOW and never go back. i don tneed it anyway. b) quitting the council just to show them how much work i do, and how much they need me. But well, those solutions don't work. It wont do anyone any good. and so then this verse popped in my head, i don tknow where it is.. somewhere in the gospels, i think. it goes something liek this. "it is the Lord's to avenge" and something like "leave room for God's wrath" I dont really know if it relates, but i guess, God's got this down. And i felt quite peaceful knowing that God knows.. and really, why do i care so much about this? Well, i dont know. But it still annoys me. Perhaps i'll get some insight as the days pass.
more to come,
-a.
*oh, i tried writing formally, but my "anger" took over and so i just kept typing and forgot all my grammar. haha
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Thursday, April 23, 2009
I thought you were Christian
If you may recall, I posted an entry about saying "hey Christian, chill!". I've recently had a similar experience. Twice within the last two days.
Firstly, I was with a non-Christian friend and we were talking about prom and dates. So we were talking about someone we know who said no to a guy, and my friend's answer to that was, "well, I can see that happening. She's so Christian". I was pretty surprised by that comment because I was just like "welll....." because I know she didn't really mean any harm to that comment, but that implication made me feel pretty weird. I've been thinking about it, and I don't know if she meant that because she was Christian and he was non-Christian, she would automatically say no, but my impression was that being a super-Christian meant that you don't date.
So today, I had a spare so I was leaving to go out but everyone else had an assembly. So I guess technically I was skipping, fine. I was by my locker and people from classes were starting to come out, and these people passed by me and they were all like, "yo, skipper!!" and i was just like "yeah yeah..". Then this one guy passed by and he was like "I thought you were Christian!" I was with a Christian friend at that time, and I was a little more subtle about it, but her jaw dropped.
To some all that up: dang, EVERY little thing can be turned into something to do with Christian identity. Both times, I had no idea what to say. I started saying something along the lines of "well...that doesn't really matter" but then maybe it does. I'm not quite sure. There's so many different ways people view Christians, and it really throws me off when someone says something like that. I usually think of those kinds of comments being relative to things on a bigger scale like committing crimes, but this time it really made me realize that people do watch our every little move. I feel like I should've been standing up for my faith, but I wasn't sure if my answer would've been hypocritical or give them the wrong impression- or just be flat out wrong. So now, I've kind of compiled a mental list of what to say in these kinds of situations because this is a reality. The only thing is that that mental list is still empty.
Sabrina
Firstly, I was with a non-Christian friend and we were talking about prom and dates. So we were talking about someone we know who said no to a guy, and my friend's answer to that was, "well, I can see that happening. She's so Christian". I was pretty surprised by that comment because I was just like "welll....." because I know she didn't really mean any harm to that comment, but that implication made me feel pretty weird. I've been thinking about it, and I don't know if she meant that because she was Christian and he was non-Christian, she would automatically say no, but my impression was that being a super-Christian meant that you don't date.
So today, I had a spare so I was leaving to go out but everyone else had an assembly. So I guess technically I was skipping, fine. I was by my locker and people from classes were starting to come out, and these people passed by me and they were all like, "yo, skipper!!" and i was just like "yeah yeah..". Then this one guy passed by and he was like "I thought you were Christian!" I was with a Christian friend at that time, and I was a little more subtle about it, but her jaw dropped.
To some all that up: dang, EVERY little thing can be turned into something to do with Christian identity. Both times, I had no idea what to say. I started saying something along the lines of "well...that doesn't really matter" but then maybe it does. I'm not quite sure. There's so many different ways people view Christians, and it really throws me off when someone says something like that. I usually think of those kinds of comments being relative to things on a bigger scale like committing crimes, but this time it really made me realize that people do watch our every little move. I feel like I should've been standing up for my faith, but I wasn't sure if my answer would've been hypocritical or give them the wrong impression- or just be flat out wrong. So now, I've kind of compiled a mental list of what to say in these kinds of situations because this is a reality. The only thing is that that mental list is still empty.
Sabrina
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Wrestling.
So Tina preached about wrestling with God today. And I realized that I do this a lot. As I was sharing about my university dilemmas, I said that I didn't know what God wants for me and whether I'm basing my decisions on my own desires. So in short, I do think that God wants me to go to Waterloo, since He's given me much guidance through Andrew (I know you're reading this, so *hi5! :]). And so I guess what I've been doing now is trying to take control of my life. I want an "escape" through my friends, I suppose. I want them to approve of my decisions. And since many of them are saying "Oh.. Waterloo? Why?", I feel uneasy about my decision. Remember what we learned from fellowship on Friday, why are we turning to earthly things when we can turn to God? And God's been pretty clear to me, I think.
I guess what I wanna say is that even if my peers don't exactly agree with me, it doesn't matter. As stated in Isaish 55:8-9 ""For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways," declares the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways And My thoughts than your thoughts." I remember singing a song with these lyrics many TCs ago. I can't find it now, but it's stuck by me a lot.
So, I guess I'm going to UW :)
--a.
I guess what I wanna say is that even if my peers don't exactly agree with me, it doesn't matter. As stated in Isaish 55:8-9 ""For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways," declares the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways And My thoughts than your thoughts." I remember singing a song with these lyrics many TCs ago. I can't find it now, but it's stuck by me a lot.
So, I guess I'm going to UW :)
--a.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
It was there all along
So today just randomly as I was on the road, I had a flashback-
Back in the fall, I remember that my uncle was asking me which universities I applied to, and Carleton was one of them. Then he said something along the lines of, "a girl from my church is going there for sure and she really wants to join the fellowship group there" and how friendly she was and stuff. His point was that almost certainly, I'd have someone from Toronto to connect with if I were to attend the fellowship group; that there would be someone that could potentially pull me to that group.
I've had the fear for quite a while that in university, I would stray away from God. I have the fear that I'll leave and never come back. So today, I finally understood the sign that God was giving me. It took me about half a year to realize it, but I think that this is my sign to go to Carleton. It's kind of funny how this is based on a person who I've never seen (heck, I don't even know her name), but the fact that her determination to be at the fellowship is so strong, it kind of motivates me too. And now that I think about it, I have no Christian friends going to Laurier, there's been no mention of Christians at U of Ottawa, but there was an association between Carleton and Laurier.
I don't even know if I'm making sense right now, but my point is that it's those little subtle signs that we should be looking out for. I've been praying for a while to get some guidance about where to go, and it took me this long to realize that I had my sign from the start. Like this one, sometimes the signs aren't even very logical, but there's a feeling that it makes sense. Maybe it's even symbolic. I don't even know how to describe it, but I'm just so much more comforted about this decision now that I found that sign. So keep your eyes and ears open because God works in mysterious ways. It may take half a year to discover it, but He's got your back.
Sorry that this wasn't very articulate,
Sabrina.
Back in the fall, I remember that my uncle was asking me which universities I applied to, and Carleton was one of them. Then he said something along the lines of, "a girl from my church is going there for sure and she really wants to join the fellowship group there" and how friendly she was and stuff. His point was that almost certainly, I'd have someone from Toronto to connect with if I were to attend the fellowship group; that there would be someone that could potentially pull me to that group.
I've had the fear for quite a while that in university, I would stray away from God. I have the fear that I'll leave and never come back. So today, I finally understood the sign that God was giving me. It took me about half a year to realize it, but I think that this is my sign to go to Carleton. It's kind of funny how this is based on a person who I've never seen (heck, I don't even know her name), but the fact that her determination to be at the fellowship is so strong, it kind of motivates me too. And now that I think about it, I have no Christian friends going to Laurier, there's been no mention of Christians at U of Ottawa, but there was an association between Carleton and Laurier.
I don't even know if I'm making sense right now, but my point is that it's those little subtle signs that we should be looking out for. I've been praying for a while to get some guidance about where to go, and it took me this long to realize that I had my sign from the start. Like this one, sometimes the signs aren't even very logical, but there's a feeling that it makes sense. Maybe it's even symbolic. I don't even know how to describe it, but I'm just so much more comforted about this decision now that I found that sign. So keep your eyes and ears open because God works in mysterious ways. It may take half a year to discover it, but He's got your back.
Sorry that this wasn't very articulate,
Sabrina.
Monday, April 13, 2009
Look up.
I've been meaning to blog about this a while ago.
So every Monday night, I have band at school til 8:30ish. And every time, I would call my dad to pick me up.. After I get my stuffs ready, he's usually still not there yet. I would mumble and whine, although I'm not exactly impatient. I would say, "Where is my father?" in that annoying voice that I have. One time, my friend Justin, some of you might know him, he said something to me that really hit home. He said casually, "If you're looking for your Father, look up." Those simple words really made me feel a rush of peace and... i suppose you could call it happiness. It only took such simple but yet wise words to remind me of who I am to God. He is our Father, and we are His. Although I knew this before, it just really made me realize that God's love for us is bigger than anything in the world. And i remember this from TC: God is constant and unchanging. We're the ones that move away from Him, but no matter what, God is there waiting for us with open arms to welcome us home.
I don't know how you spent your Easter, but this year's been quite incredible to me. I went to this service, and one thing that I remember the pastor saying was that Jesus didn't have to die for us. He didn't even need to come down to Earth. He didn't have to suffer the pain and listen to the insults that were hurled at Him. He could've just go back to Heaven if He wanted to. But He did it for us, and really, who are we to deserve this saving grace? On saturday I went to SCBC's fellowship. And this girl mentioned something that I never paid much attention to. When Christ was suffering on the cross, he asked "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?" and God turned his face away. He could'nt bear to see His only son suffering, but yet he still leet it happen so that we could be redeemed. I don't even know where to find this in the bible, but it made me realize how great God's love for us is. So on Sunday, it was a really hectic day, but it was so amazing! Since our service started at 10:30, I went and worshipped til 11, because my friends were getting baptised at 11:15. When we got there, they were singing "Celebrate Jesus", the same song that we sang at church. I've never heard of this song before, but it was kinda cool cause the fact is that Easter is supposed to be a celebration for all Christians over the world. So hearing at two different churches (and im sure others sang it too) was pretty cool. After that, i went to two other friends' baptisms. So i went to four different churches. And it was relaly cool to see how different churches worship and such. I really enjoyed it, actually. Although my butt REALLY hurt after such long hours of sitting. It was amazing to see God working in all these people's lives and how God has shaped them. I was tearing as my friend was sharing her testimony. It got me really emotional because i've known her for so long. In a way, I watched her from being someone that has no idea who God is, to someone that's serving Him so much different ways, it really made me happy. I guess it re-affirmed my faith as well, cause i know God is faithful and He'll bring us through whatever he leads us to. :)
This has been a really long post. I've forgotten a lot of stuffs that i wanted to say, but I'm sure you get the general idea of my post. :)
So every Monday night, I have band at school til 8:30ish. And every time, I would call my dad to pick me up.. After I get my stuffs ready, he's usually still not there yet. I would mumble and whine, although I'm not exactly impatient. I would say, "Where is my father?" in that annoying voice that I have. One time, my friend Justin, some of you might know him, he said something to me that really hit home. He said casually, "If you're looking for your Father, look up." Those simple words really made me feel a rush of peace and... i suppose you could call it happiness. It only took such simple but yet wise words to remind me of who I am to God. He is our Father, and we are His. Although I knew this before, it just really made me realize that God's love for us is bigger than anything in the world. And i remember this from TC: God is constant and unchanging. We're the ones that move away from Him, but no matter what, God is there waiting for us with open arms to welcome us home.
I don't know how you spent your Easter, but this year's been quite incredible to me. I went to this service, and one thing that I remember the pastor saying was that Jesus didn't have to die for us. He didn't even need to come down to Earth. He didn't have to suffer the pain and listen to the insults that were hurled at Him. He could've just go back to Heaven if He wanted to. But He did it for us, and really, who are we to deserve this saving grace? On saturday I went to SCBC's fellowship. And this girl mentioned something that I never paid much attention to. When Christ was suffering on the cross, he asked "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?" and God turned his face away. He could'nt bear to see His only son suffering, but yet he still leet it happen so that we could be redeemed. I don't even know where to find this in the bible, but it made me realize how great God's love for us is. So on Sunday, it was a really hectic day, but it was so amazing! Since our service started at 10:30, I went and worshipped til 11, because my friends were getting baptised at 11:15. When we got there, they were singing "Celebrate Jesus", the same song that we sang at church. I've never heard of this song before, but it was kinda cool cause the fact is that Easter is supposed to be a celebration for all Christians over the world. So hearing at two different churches (and im sure others sang it too) was pretty cool. After that, i went to two other friends' baptisms. So i went to four different churches. And it was relaly cool to see how different churches worship and such. I really enjoyed it, actually. Although my butt REALLY hurt after such long hours of sitting. It was amazing to see God working in all these people's lives and how God has shaped them. I was tearing as my friend was sharing her testimony. It got me really emotional because i've known her for so long. In a way, I watched her from being someone that has no idea who God is, to someone that's serving Him so much different ways, it really made me happy. I guess it re-affirmed my faith as well, cause i know God is faithful and He'll bring us through whatever he leads us to. :)
This has been a really long post. I've forgotten a lot of stuffs that i wanted to say, but I'm sure you get the general idea of my post. :)
How deep the Father's love for us
How vast beyond all measure
That He would give His only Son
To make a wretch His treasure
How great the pain of searing loss
The Father turns His face away
As wounds which mar the chosen One
Bring many sons to glory
Behold the Man upon a cross
My guilt upon His shoulders
Ashamed, I hear my mocking voice
Call out among the scoffers
It was my sin that held Him there
Until it was accomplished
His dying breath has brought me life
I know that it is finished
I will not boast in anything
No gifts, no powr's, no wisdom
But I will boast in Jesus Christ
His death and resurrection
Why should I gain from His reward?
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Tarrot Cards
Maybe all of you guys reading this would be curious about the title of my blog, or maybe you won't be lol but still.
Well now i know that in the bible it says that i shouldn't play with tarrot cards, but i guess it was two years ago when i played with tarrot cards. I was young and i didn't know and i guess back then i wasn't as serious about God as i am now. It was in grade 8 when i played with the cards, well one of my best friends bought it at p-mall and i remember almost everyday i'd go over to her place and play monopoly lol (yes i noe a very boring activity for just 2 people, we played for the whole day once) but i guess we got bored of it and she got a new set of tarrot cards, so we were just playing it for fun. Well, the results that i had weren't really true at the moment, but a while ago i was remembering what the tarrot cards said about my future and i was really believeing that maybe tarrot cards could really tell the future because the results that i remember all came true. Here's an example. Back then i guess i wasn't really close friends with this person, and we the card said that i'd be really really close friends with this person and i think itz really true rite now. Another card also said that the friend who i played the cards with wouldn't be as close friends anymore. I honestly felt that it was true this lately because i haven't really talked to her and the only time i did was when we said hi to each other and stuff. I felt like things were getting awkwards because one time it was me and her and another friend sitting there and we didn't even talk. Well, since i thought that card was comming true, i prayed to God to maintain our friendship. I guess right now the card was wrong because i talked to her yesterday and we just talked about the problems we had. She told me that being best friends doesn't necessarily mean that we have to hang out with each other everyday and talk to each other often, they're supposed to be there for you no matter what and tell you what you should change about yourself no matter how bad it sounds. I was really reassured that our relationship didn't change that much and i was really happy. I was just so happy and i think God answered my prayer lol.
I guess this also kind of relates to things that have happened to me this lately. I've been in some really bad friend situations and i once thought that we worked things out, but we didn't, so right now i dunno.. i haven't talked to them for like a month or more now. You're probably wondering how it relates, well i guess the friendships that i had with those friends were pretty weak even though we talked to each other everyday and hung out a lot. I guess this conflict between us really showed me how weak our friendships were. At that moment i really wanted to see if we were strong enough to be able to get good friends again, but at this rate i don't think it's possible. I don't think i'm mad at them, but i just don't like the things that happened. If i compared those two friendships i just talked about, there's a pretty big contrast. Now i know that being really good friends with someone doesn't really matter on the amount of times you talk to them in a day or how many hours you spend with them. I think it comes from the heart. If you really think that they're your best friend then they'd really be your bestfriend even thought you might not talk to that person really often. (I don't know if that made sense, but it all made sense in my head lol)
well anyways i should go and sleep now. BLOG EVERYONE! lol nites
-sherm
Well now i know that in the bible it says that i shouldn't play with tarrot cards, but i guess it was two years ago when i played with tarrot cards. I was young and i didn't know and i guess back then i wasn't as serious about God as i am now. It was in grade 8 when i played with the cards, well one of my best friends bought it at p-mall and i remember almost everyday i'd go over to her place and play monopoly lol (yes i noe a very boring activity for just 2 people, we played for the whole day once) but i guess we got bored of it and she got a new set of tarrot cards, so we were just playing it for fun. Well, the results that i had weren't really true at the moment, but a while ago i was remembering what the tarrot cards said about my future and i was really believeing that maybe tarrot cards could really tell the future because the results that i remember all came true. Here's an example. Back then i guess i wasn't really close friends with this person, and we the card said that i'd be really really close friends with this person and i think itz really true rite now. Another card also said that the friend who i played the cards with wouldn't be as close friends anymore. I honestly felt that it was true this lately because i haven't really talked to her and the only time i did was when we said hi to each other and stuff. I felt like things were getting awkwards because one time it was me and her and another friend sitting there and we didn't even talk. Well, since i thought that card was comming true, i prayed to God to maintain our friendship. I guess right now the card was wrong because i talked to her yesterday and we just talked about the problems we had. She told me that being best friends doesn't necessarily mean that we have to hang out with each other everyday and talk to each other often, they're supposed to be there for you no matter what and tell you what you should change about yourself no matter how bad it sounds. I was really reassured that our relationship didn't change that much and i was really happy. I was just so happy and i think God answered my prayer lol.
I guess this also kind of relates to things that have happened to me this lately. I've been in some really bad friend situations and i once thought that we worked things out, but we didn't, so right now i dunno.. i haven't talked to them for like a month or more now. You're probably wondering how it relates, well i guess the friendships that i had with those friends were pretty weak even though we talked to each other everyday and hung out a lot. I guess this conflict between us really showed me how weak our friendships were. At that moment i really wanted to see if we were strong enough to be able to get good friends again, but at this rate i don't think it's possible. I don't think i'm mad at them, but i just don't like the things that happened. If i compared those two friendships i just talked about, there's a pretty big contrast. Now i know that being really good friends with someone doesn't really matter on the amount of times you talk to them in a day or how many hours you spend with them. I think it comes from the heart. If you really think that they're your best friend then they'd really be your bestfriend even thought you might not talk to that person really often. (I don't know if that made sense, but it all made sense in my head lol)
well anyways i should go and sleep now. BLOG EVERYONE! lol nites
-sherm
pressure
so i just got home from work 1 and a half hour ago. I'm very tired and i have two more lessons of math homework to do. lol so i was doing homework and suddenly, i was planning out what I have to do tommorow. The first thing that came up to my mind was church. That reminded me that Anthony told me to post this verse onto our blog, . . . or else. Technically, I'm not too late yet because he told me last sunday. So tomorrow I can tell him that I did what he asked me to do. Here's the verse:
it is by grace you have been saved, through faith - and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God - not by works, so that no one can boast. {Ephesians 2:8-9}
He told me to ask you guys to find the meaning of grace and faith. I'm pretty sure the people in Anthony's class will find out tomorrow. So that means we can all try to post the answer and blog blog blog !
k. chan
it is by grace you have been saved, through faith - and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God - not by works, so that no one can boast. {Ephesians 2:8-9}
He told me to ask you guys to find the meaning of grace and faith. I'm pretty sure the people in Anthony's class will find out tomorrow. So that means we can all try to post the answer and blog blog blog !
k. chan
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Planted Seeds
I felt God's presence today.
So about an hour ago, I was just chatting with a few friends on msn; the usual. Somehow we got to the topic of fellowship and our spiritual lives. It was pretty interesting, because I was actually waiting to have a "deep" conversation with this particular person regarding this topic. So we talked about what a fellowship really is, and how we can develop a sense of belonging and what not. Then I told him about how I didn't exactly know you guys, and how slowly but surely we build connections and relationships and how it does feel more like a fellowship now, rather than a bunch of kids sitting around avoiding eye-contact. I'm not saying that all of us are crazily enthusiastic to answer questions when we do bible study (as seen today), but that I know that it's been getting better because we know each other more, etc. As the conversation progressed, we talked about how he could start something at his school or with his friends and stuffs. It got pretty intruging. At this time, another friend messages me and she tells me about her "intensive debate" with a non-christian friend about science and religion. It got pretty intense because our friend is quite ...determined that there is no God. So then they start talking about science and how life existed and it simply cannot be caused by random collisions of atoms and molecules... The point is, she ends up telling me how frustrated she was because she's been praying for the friend for so long. And at that moment, I sorta had a.. tear of joy, cause I've been praying for this friend as well. It was encouraging for me to know that I'm not alone in trying to spread the Word, especially to these friends that I care about. Right then, I felt so compelled to talk to God, so I prayed. I felt so .. empowered, in a way, because I know that God works in mysterious ways. The way I see it, by having the "intense debate", we planted a seed in our friend's heart. Whether or not it'll grow or when it would, we dont know. But that's already a big step. But both my friend and I have faith that in time, God'll do His thing. :)
"Be patient, then, brothers, until the Lord's coming. See how the farmer waits for the land to yield its valuable crop and how patient he is for the autumn and psring rains. You too, be patient and stand firm, because the Lord's coming is near." James 5:7-8 I'm not exactly sure if I'm iterpreting this right, but patience is key. This is where our witnessing comes in. After we've planted the seed of "faith" and "religion" in our friend's heart, we need to behave according to God's will and not be a "disgrace to all the other Christians," as we stated in fellowship today.
I guess the point of this blog was to write about my experience with different people. As I was talking ot my friends, I was also writing my TC sharing. So seriously, tonight, I felt God was right beside me. It was kinda scary! haha :)
So about an hour ago, I was just chatting with a few friends on msn; the usual. Somehow we got to the topic of fellowship and our spiritual lives. It was pretty interesting, because I was actually waiting to have a "deep" conversation with this particular person regarding this topic. So we talked about what a fellowship really is, and how we can develop a sense of belonging and what not. Then I told him about how I didn't exactly know you guys, and how slowly but surely we build connections and relationships and how it does feel more like a fellowship now, rather than a bunch of kids sitting around avoiding eye-contact. I'm not saying that all of us are crazily enthusiastic to answer questions when we do bible study (as seen today), but that I know that it's been getting better because we know each other more, etc. As the conversation progressed, we talked about how he could start something at his school or with his friends and stuffs. It got pretty intruging. At this time, another friend messages me and she tells me about her "intensive debate" with a non-christian friend about science and religion. It got pretty intense because our friend is quite ...determined that there is no God. So then they start talking about science and how life existed and it simply cannot be caused by random collisions of atoms and molecules... The point is, she ends up telling me how frustrated she was because she's been praying for the friend for so long. And at that moment, I sorta had a.. tear of joy, cause I've been praying for this friend as well. It was encouraging for me to know that I'm not alone in trying to spread the Word, especially to these friends that I care about. Right then, I felt so compelled to talk to God, so I prayed. I felt so .. empowered, in a way, because I know that God works in mysterious ways. The way I see it, by having the "intense debate", we planted a seed in our friend's heart. Whether or not it'll grow or when it would, we dont know. But that's already a big step. But both my friend and I have faith that in time, God'll do His thing. :)
"Be patient, then, brothers, until the Lord's coming. See how the farmer waits for the land to yield its valuable crop and how patient he is for the autumn and psring rains. You too, be patient and stand firm, because the Lord's coming is near." James 5:7-8 I'm not exactly sure if I'm iterpreting this right, but patience is key. This is where our witnessing comes in. After we've planted the seed of "faith" and "religion" in our friend's heart, we need to behave according to God's will and not be a "disgrace to all the other Christians," as we stated in fellowship today.
I guess the point of this blog was to write about my experience with different people. As I was talking ot my friends, I was also writing my TC sharing. So seriously, tonight, I felt God was right beside me. It was kinda scary! haha :)
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