This is why we blog (pt.2)

So back in May, I blogged about why we blog and how we do it. It had some stuff about making lists, goals, and doing things like writing a letter to God.

I said back then that I'd do it eventually. This is eventually.

Fyi, this is my second day at Carleton. I've already cried. Ridiculous, huh. Except I thought it'd be weird if i was bawling my eyes out with my roommate here, so I tried to keep it to a minimum. How? I opened up my Bible for the first time in...maybe a year, seriously. Now I didn't know what to turn to (but i must admit, Matthew 6:25 was going through my head- aka. 'Do not worry'), but I remember in a SIC (Sisters in Christ, aka. my group of friends getting together once in a while to fellowship) we were supposed to read the book of Ruth, but i never did. So I read the book of Ruth. Okay, I must admit that I didn't really get what I potentially was supposed to out of it, but just having the Word of God was comfort enough. Actually, this is what I needed for a wake-up call. To be nearly completely alone so that I would look to God. Heck, I didn't even look to God- I SEARCHED for Him.

My to do list (for this week as confirmed by my roomie):
-Get to know people.
-Party.
-Drink.
-Get to know people while partying and drinking.
-Leave our door open so that we can meet more (drunk) people- (we just shook on it)

MY to do list (what God wants me to do):
-Get to know people.
-Get to know people that will be a good influence on me.
-Get to know people that I can fellowship with

Alright, so from those 2 lists, I've kinda done stuff from both. From list 1, we've been leaving our door open, that's all. From list 2, I know a few people that are Christian, but it's still early so it's kind of hard to bring church up right now, but it's frequently at the back of my mind.

So guys, pray for me! I need a ton of strength and courage right now.

P.S. i miss you tons already.

[[edit:: So I was just reading Sept.7's Our Daily Bread entry and it was about unanswered prayers. The bottom line was that some prayers are meant to be unanswered because it's not in God's will because He knows what's best for us. So this is gonna sound super-antisocial, but hey- maybe I wasn't meant to do all of that stuff on List 1 right now. In fact, maybe I'm supposed to be antisocial right now so that I'm not meeting people that will steer me the wrong way.
Dang, I forgot how awesome the God & His Word could be!

--sabrina