A sad kind of bliss

So please bear with me because I'm kind of at a loss for words right now, but I felt the need to blog. Today was a tough day. My friend's been having some problems, so during class, me and a teacher sorta gave her an intervention. It was just...hard because I didn't know what to say or do. I said all that I could in worldly terms, so when I ran out of things to say, I knew it was time to bring up God. See, this friend was one of the people that helped introduce me to Christianity. Now to see her so far away, it really struck me deep. I even said to her, "you helped save my life, now I want to help save yours". If you're been following my blogs, you know that I've shied away for a while from the opportunity to outreach. I didn't want to let this opportunity go. At all. Again, it was hard because I didn't know what to say to her rebuttals. It's not even a matter of her not understanding the concepts, it's a matter of her having tunnel vision. Like, I would say "you gotta stop doing this to yourself because you're a temple of God". Then she responded with, "why can't I be a beautiful temple". Like dang, I didn't know how to make it about God because this whole discussion was based around her. So anyway, we also had a talk with the teacher who is also a Christian. After a while, we prayed together, and that's when I basically broke down. The last time I cried during a prayer was out of sadness. This time, it was out of passion. Yes, the situation was killing me, but I was also glad at the same time that I'm able to be apart of this. I don't even know how to explain it, but I literally felt like we were crying out to God so passionately.

Then later that day we had T4C, and during the prayer, I started crying to out of pure joy. I was so thankful for all that I have been blessed with. To have the opportunity to be a part of this religion. For all that I've been apart of. I have a really strong attachment to school fellowships because that's where I feel like I became.

I gotta say that I'm a little traumatized by today's events and I'm over emotional and a mess of emotions. Almost hysterical. I'm kind of laughing and crying right now. In the middle of this blog, I just started praying. It felt awesome.

-Sabrina