Since we're on a roll of being honest...
There's been so much that i wanted to blog about, but i keep forgetting. :(
So if you were there on Sunday, Tina preached on Malachi, and it was pretty much about our worship attitude. Not only on why/how we worship God, but God's response to our worship. Y'know, God might be saying "Yo, i dont like the way (s)he is worshiping me." And it just really hit me. Personally, I dont like admitting that i'm wrong. A lot of times, I woudl and will find a way to make myself look like im right, even if im at fault. But is that gonna work with God, who sees right through me? There's really no way to hide.
Again, I need to confess something. So since summer started, I havent exactly done devo, the kind of devo that i did during school. I've come to realize that during the summer time, there really isnt a "need" for me to search for God because I don't encounter any challanges. When I'm at home, I just sit and chill and watch dramas. When I'm at work, well, we do our own little devo time in the morning. And work is really chill, so there's not much difficulties there. There really hasnt been anything that challenges my faith these past months. And I think that just keeps me drifting away from my devo time and my prayer time. I'm still trying to work on this. One of the reason that i'm looking forward to school again is that i KNOW I'll need God's guidance and wisdom, so I'd be doing my regular devo again. hahaha.
Like we asked at wildcamp, Do you see the need to outreach? But i guess a better question right now would be : Do you see YOUR need for God? Because if you dont, how can your listeners understand and believe in what you tell them, when you yourself are unsure?
I wonder if God misses me. Cause I think it's time to go back.
--a.
It's ok, even if we, mere mortals, see through you, and know that you like to pull things off to prove that you are right, we still love you for who you are :P
ReplyDeleteI think one of the biggest challenge every Christian face nowadays is feeling indifferent about their relationship with God or I guess feeling satisified with their current state. This often makes people further away from God. It's just like couples who think they hit the plateau in their relationship and they can go no further. They just leave things as they are. At the end, they lose feelings for each other.
We, as Christians, have a very intimate personal relationship with our Lord Jesus and this relationship takes time to cultivate and develop. I am sure you know it is not a one night thing if you were to have a relationship with someone. I am glad that you realize that.
UW will give you plenty of challenges. You will probably "enjoy" that experience very much. I think I already gave you a list (maybe too much) about what to watch out for, whether you remember or not. But not to worry, because there are angels around you when you are there. You will eventually see them as you go through your 5 years.
now... just waiting for Karen Chan to make a blog on her summer experience as a church worker... :P
God definitely misses you.
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